Tired? Worn? Who Cares for You?

I’m tired, I’m worn. These words by Tenth Avenue North in their song, “I’m Worn” could be the mantra of every caregiver.  The song continues, “a heart that is heavy; worn from the work it takes to keep on breathing, your soul feels crushed by the weight of this world.”

Do you wonder if the struggle of therapy appointments, equipment that needs repair, insurance pre-authorizations, specialists being far away, personal care attendants not showing up, or IEPs will ever end?

Not all of us feel this way, or at least not all the time. When these feelings strike me, I try to remind myself that there is a day when the struggle will end.  When our hearts that are frail and torn can be reborn.  Until that day I need to remember I am not alone in caring for my husband. God cares more for each of us than we could ever care for one another.

Let’s look at a few ways that God is our caregiver:

  • He gives us rest – Mt 11:28-30 28 Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.”

Jesus invites me to 1) Come to him  2) Work in unison with him (that’s the yoke part) and  3) Learn from him.

  • He sent the Holy Spirit to be our comforter and counselor – to live within us and empower us. John 14:16
  • Jesus is our advocate- those of us in the disability world understand advocacy. The Bible says Jesus is our advocate when we sin– how’s that for getting the best?  I John 2:1 
  • Alpha Omega – He is our bookends, He was there in the beginning and created us. He’ll be with us in the end. And He sustains us through every breath in between. He NEVER leaves us alone. Rev 22:13
  • He’s preparing a place for us – that’s pretty cool. Have you ever felt like you just don’t belong here? To some degree we all have. That’s because this world is not our home. Here on earth, we may only get glimpses of the rest that we will enter into in Heaven. John 14:1-4 

Can you imagine a better Caregiver for you or your spouse? Won’t you join me in taking His counsel from Matthew 11:29 and let Him teach us how to walk in the rhythm of rest.

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A Picture of Rest

Both in my own life, and in my ministry life I’ve been working through a lot of information and teaching on Sabbath and rest.  I am a better experiential learner, which makes this picture God gave me today all the sweeter!

If this is not your first time reading my ponderings you likely know that I adore all my nieces and nephews and delight in any time I can spend with them.  One of the knacks I tend to have with the little ones is being able to put them to sleep.  I love to just snuggle them securely and sing softly in their ear.  It’s not too long and they are asleep.

imageI had the privilege of doing that several times this weekend with baby V.  One of the nap times though she just was not settling down and none of my usual tricks worked!  I know she loves to have a cell phone in her hand and particularly enjoys seeing videos of herself or her cousins.  So I pulled out the phone and held it out for her to see the other baby V (yes we have two babies born 3 months apart both with names that begin with V).

It wasn’t long before the baby V in my arms took the phone from me and just clutched it to her chest and face.  As she did that she fell asleep, but was still somewhat restless.  All the while though her grip on the phone remained tight.  After about 10 minutes like that I could feel her body relax more and fall into a deeper, sounder sleep.  As that happened her grip on the phone relaxed and it fell away.

Almost immediately I thought – wow, what a perfect picture of me and God.  In one sense all baby V needed was to rest in my arms and she would be safe and secure.  But she insisted on gripping onto that phone.

God woos me and invites me to rest in his arms.  He even tells me in Psalm 42:8 “By day the Lord directs His love, at night His song is with me.”  Like baby V, I could be in that deep soul satisfying rest sooner if I would let go of the “stuff” like worries, concerns, schedules, relationships, you name it that I try so hard to cling to while still saying, yes God I want to rest in You!Psalm 42:8